I'm supposed to be in bed. Walker and I are meeting his sister for lunch tomorrow, so I'll need to be up much earlier than normal. I should be in bed, but clearly, I'm not.
I spent the better part of the weekend going through my warm weather clothes trying to figure out what to pack for our upcoming vacation. I like to do that well in advance, so if I need to repair or replace anything I have plenty of time. I usually try to pack things in the same color family, so I can mix and match. It helps to keep the item count down.
Well. I lost some weight last year, so I decided I'd better try on everything before I chose what to take. It was a bit disconcerting. My surgery and radiation have left me somewhat.....lopsided. Like, very lopsided. Wearing several layers of winter clothing has allowed me to ignore the issue. I won't be able to do that in Florida. My doctor explained that for about a year following radiation, my boob will "re-contour" as it heals. The skin will thicken and the tissue will tighten on the treatment side. The boob will probably lift and shrink. Those changes are permanent, even if I live to be a hundred. I had decided not to do anything to "balance" the girls until I'm fully healed, and even then I may just let it go. In the meantime, I have to adjust to my new body. I guess I should have been embracing it rather than ignoring it. I was totally unprepared when I saw my lopsided self wearing a plain summer tshirt.
The good news is that Florida is having unseasonably cold weather. It's not likely that I'll need to put on a bathing suit during our trip. I guess I'll call that a silver lining.